So I’m sitting in a group talking about the dumb things we do in life and I hear that new but familiar whisper in my mind, “God takes care of our sin. He doesn’t need to fix our mistakes, we do.”
It was quite an abrupt thought actually. I had to ask myself, “Is it a mistake when I get angry or is it a sin of judgement and unkindness? Is it a mistake that I hurt someone’s feelings or a sin? What’s the difference and why does it matter?”
For me a mistake is something I do by accident, without premeditated thought and without contemplating the consequences. A sin, on the other hand, is something I do knowing full well what the consequences are and not caring at that immediate moment. Both cause regret and both should be addressed immediately but only one seems an intentional misuse of God’s gift of grace while the other seems an unintentional way to be forced to ask for someone else’s grace.
I sit back and think to myself, “The trouble is, if it’s my job to fix my mistakes, then when I sin and call it a mistake it becomes my job to take care of my sin. So, do I really want to be held accountable for all of the sins I can’t take care of? I think I’m pretty tied up already working on fixing all those mistakes! It’s probably much easier to come clean, ask for God to take it and release it than to hang on to the delusion that it was ‘just a mistake’. ”